Dark Room

Callin’ you on the phone, you claim you’re all alone
Breathing sounds too heavy, I’m on one but ready
And it’s alright

Changing out my thinking, dropped the liquor/was drinking
Could feel like I was sinking, the pain it was bringing
And it’s alright [because]

I’m on a higher calling, hanging on to God to keep from falling
Admittedly in places still being mended, faith was transcended
Writing in this dark room, walled off like an ancient tomb
Can’t be mad at the progress, playing games you lost this
Loyal to the end, never a better friend
That’s so real

Take some tome to listen, to the things you’ve been missing, other boys you’re kissing its me you’re dissing!
On the real can’t blame ya, real girls come with danger, danga [dang-a]
Truth be told we both did the hurt we inflicted
And it’s alright

Loyal to the end, never have a better friend
Nothing but love for ya, I’ll always love ya
I love you.

Alone

I don’t want to fade from your memory
So please do your best and remember me
I’d like nothing more than to hand you my heart
If you could promise me it wouldn’t get torn apart.
When times get to be too much to handle;
Your the best friend I could ask for
Only one in my life I’m trying to hold more

But she’s…
Worried about the time
If in the future things will work out fine
The future around the bend she can’t see
Wondering what that picture would look like of her and me
I try to comfort her because most things are destiny

I pace around until I reach a mile
31 laps to clear my mind for awhile
In no hurry nothing but time
I dream about her praying that she’s fine
Loving her is my days pleasure
She gives a love that’s my only treasure
In her eyes I find a way home
The warmth in her arms perfection but for now
I’m…alone

Get Hired Now

A Day In Their Shoes (and tips for getting hired) 

ImageIt has been said to know someone you must walk a mile in their shoes. In many instances I’ve had the privilege to do just that. Recently while talking with a friend they said I should write something about it, and the experience as a whole. From retail stores such as Walmart, to tech giants like Microsoft and Apple I’ve literally probably walked a day in your life.

ImageThe interview process out of three interviews in my life time, two at a minimum have offered me a job, I can freely tell you it isn’t my resume, it’s connecting with the person conducting the interviews. I remember once at Trump University Donald Trump explaining that before a business deal he looks at the items in a persons office when ever possible. You can tell a the world about a person from what they keep closest to them in an office, where family pictures adorn the walls there is a moment for connection if you a family man or woman as well, so goes the same for sports and most other aspects be it fishing or ice skating. Paying attention to those items may just separate from the other hundred men or women applying to the same position.

I would advise to answer questions about you while having a sense of humor about anything possibly conceived as a negative about yourself. I have one rule during interviews that has served me well if I can make the person across from the desk laugh the job is already mine. I’ve had people put my resume down, and just talk with me minutes later offering me the job. Really it’s all about connecting with the person and being the one that they will remember. So there is some dime store on getting hired the first time and not doing a boat load of interviews.

ImageAnother free piece of advice I would give to would be job hunters do not send one sentence replies for jobs listed on Craigs List, or anywhere else for that matter. Make sure any correspondence you have reflects the professional person you are, and will be working for the would be employer. In my opinion you do not have to beat out everyone on paper for the resume the fighting ground is the interview process like a boxing ring match someone is fighting their way (metaphorically) into a new position. Last don’t be afraid to put something professional together that you can paste as a reply to save time when job searching that takes little editing and is able to be used as a general letter of interest for application or interview. Maximize your time while expanding only the effort needed to acquire the position.

So… back to my story of how I’ve lived a life in the day in many in the job market. My first job like most was in fast food which was quickly followed by retail specifically a grocery store, during which time there were some varied customer service positions, and as I recall even early on some collections. I’ve stood on runways and taxied in airplanes, loaded baggage, general labor, painting, and even been a CEO. The list really could go on forever with rare exception if you can think of it I’ve probably done it or been closely involved in something like it. Jobs you can’t talk about? Yup I’ve done those too my most exclusive non disclosure was signed in a bank vault with a fingerprint reader, and retina scanner that is literally all I can say about that position.

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What my friend found interesting wasn’t the mere mass of the positions I’ve worked but the life experience it allowed me. I have extreme empathy for the food service industry because of my experience in it, I understand the service industry and that they survive on tips, and just how much it sucks to bust your ass and not get tipped. I know what it’s like to work on a farm and have my hands bleed from the work, I get the people behind the job and the real work that goes into it. In my opinion more people should get to try more jobs, and get more real life experience to see just what they really like and don’t before getting trapped into a life time career of something that they are not fond of, it’s not their love, their passion. I think everyone should be able to love going to work, not for the money but because they are making a difference doing something they love. I don’t believe it’s simply believing in a Utopian society to have such thinking, but perhaps overly optimistic.

For XXX Magazine I have several times gone under cover to better understand a career or business and I look forward to bringing you more stories expanded on just this. For me the seemingly career jumping behavior was attributed to health, I move jobs as my health goes up and down. It’s really enhanced my ability to interview after all potential employers can see my job history, I know it works against me. So for what it’s worth here is some final advice when going to an interview don’t over dress, go nice, but not overly so it will only leave you feeling UN-comfortable and remember to make eye contact and try to crack a joke or make a connection in some way they aren’t just hiring your resume they’re looking to hire the right person for the job so let the inner you shine.

Looking to make a go of it at home?

Consider trying one of the following:

  • Alpine Access – Take customer support calls from home and get paid hourly. ( https://www.alpineaccess.com/ )
  • Amazon – HITs – Human Intelligence Tasks – are individual tasks that you work on. ( https://www.mturk.com/mturk/welcome )
  • Think of your own passion what would you do if you could do anything? Can you form a business around it?
  • Research if there is no work in your area you either need to invent the position , or perhaps move
  • Don’t give up! Try a local government job center near you for assistance in finding your career path.

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Stained Glass

Never expected perfection there’s no competition will be no election.
Only ever had to just be real, rarely could you toss out a situation I couldn’t relate to or feel.
Picturing you like stained glass perfect in imperfection it’s all just part of your complexion.
You can be the boss of your own world, won’t ever mean you can’t still be my girl.
I want to stare in your window catch all the secrets you keep that way even if your down we can both be in deep.
Do anything for you wish you’d only see, only thing that matters is that your happy even if it’s not with me.
You’ve got a style that can’t be replicated, which is why your the girl that can’t be faded.

Independent oh so real others who see us know the deal.
Together today until the hands rewind might say until the end of time.
She said “We could get married any day” I replied back we just may.
Motivated and strong minded type to keep in kind if you can find it.
Signs all point to yes, she’s top of her class wouldn’t settle for less sometimes down on herself sadly doesn’t know shes my best, times away from her I don’t even think about the rest.
Flowers in hand strike up the band, I’m going according to plan as long as it might end with me as her man.

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Black “Torn” ALB TRK2

Theres a place inside this heart you tore apart.
Half a man with a destiny in mind never knowing what he’ll find.
I watch the clouds roll as I move through this world, remembering the days when you were my girl.
Empty hotel room pillows soft against my face, the emptiness no one but you can replace.
I’m a prisoner to my love chained by the way you made me feel devistated in finding none of it was real.

Blinded by your beauty the cascade of your hair it left me powerless and UN-aware.The power of looking into your eyes mixed in a cocktail of torture of you with other guys. The pleasure you might get in the pain I feel, only confirms my love as real.

Bliss within your arms lost to your charms.
Contemplated death before meeting you, then again once I’d lost myself not knowing what to do. I’d do it all again if only to be with you if it meant you’d be true. Searched a life time to find the rest of me now it’s left me questioning everything I can’t see. I gave the best and you took the rest of me.
I’m still here loving you tonight, forever lost without the warmth of your light.
Give anything to get back to that place, in the arms that no other can replace.

Travel through speed and time come back again if it’d make you mine.
Search for you in all years prior just to take away your pain, then we’d both never hurt like this again.
If I gave it all again would you send it back or would history repeat the facts.
I stand alone along the road thinking dressed in all black, I can’t escape the fact I’ve always wanted you back.
Never left my heart you never could, you say all the right words I say “I wish you would”. (Be True)

BLACK – “Inside” ALBM1 TRK1

There’s no time in this day UN-employment lines full what’s there to do anyway?
A man holds a sign on the road another woman uses a cart to push her load.
Write about the times that took happiness away, we’ll search again another day.
Set off on the trail of this thing called life only hoping to get things right.
Burning both edges of the candle tonight, keeping religion is a fight to keep the light.
Walk the road of torture until my feet are bare because it doesn’t take much to see no one cares.
Just hit upon times and see who’s really there, friends come cheap buyer beware.

Shoes with no socks cause the holes over came rents not paid here we go again.
Fridge runs dry these times are hard the moments within leave you scard.
She makes claims of love runs horses like a club.
Your the one but shes got ten more hold on buddy it’s about to pour.
Bed rarely empty phone always full, look her in the eyes claim that shit is bull.
Prepare to eject just to save your life, right decison maybe trying to get it right.
All a dream or real life nightmare if you think I’m joking ask her if she cares.

These tears I cry for you I bleed for no one else.
The feelings normally kept upon my inner shelves.
Walls of black bars of steel look within to what you can’t reveal,
mirrors cast back all that you so easily conceal.
Roads of never ending pain I want to find happiness again.
Clouds are dark they are rolling in the storm is most brutal the more you go within.
I’d hope this would be a road we’d walk together, father told me nothing is forever.

Is NSA in your bedroom (Watching & Listening)?

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cell1It’s pretty brilliant plan that even has you footing the bill for your own surveillance. From your laptop to your smart phone and everything in between tech experts would agree it’s not paranoia to highlight the ease to tap into your devices to watch, listen, and monitor your movements with real-time GPS your location can be determined within a couple of meters or less. Front and rear mounted cameras are common place in smart phones and tablets granting would be intruders easy access to view you or listen at nearly any time. Is there a solution? Sure there is you can easily use tape, or a band-aid to cover these cameras or even my favorite a bag clip that covers that cameras aside from that only stricter legislation and higher data security practices could possibly resolve such intrusions. Many would say and have “I have nothing to hide they can go ahead and watch me” which is fine, but there is still a privacy that is supposed to be afforded constitutionally.

But should the government be listening as you make love to your wife?

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In 2005 writing for then “Doctor John Magazine” we wrote of NSA involvement in wire tapping, even poking fun at the fact that it had been sourced in cinema years before many of us here were even born. The current administration now points to a newly reformed system in which a third-party will be in charge of the information, and now after the highlight of the recent leaks your personal data will again be safe. To my knowledge Israel has a third-party facility in charge of monitoring all communications in and out of the country cellular or otherwise. Lets start a bit further back to look at the players in the game, working the problem of invasion of privacy all the way back to the United States. Pelephone may be a company many have not heard of but if I say their parent company you’ll undoubtably have heard of them. Motorola founded Pelephone in Israel in the late 80’s flash forward today just for a moment and find a large portion of Motorola is now owned by a name nearly everyone knows Google. Google has openly admitted in sharing information to government agencies and is actually one of the more transparent companies when it comes to a user beware approach in regards to the use of its services. In 2010 the  Palestinian Authority (PA) urged Palestinians to stop using the Israeli cellular companies Pelephone, Orange, Cellcom and Mirs. The official reasons were economic (Israeli companies don’t pay taxes to the PA), however the real reasons were probably related to communications security.

Could Google be secretly selling or providing all of your emails to Uncle Sam?

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The fact that has always troubled me has been that people have fought and died for our rights that are so easily sold out in the name of “The War On Terror.” On October 26, 2001 President George W. Bush put his final touches on the Patriot Act, and name was never so UN-fitting for a piece of legislation. A true patriot’s definition  “love of country and willingness to sacrifice for it.” * Well those affected certainly have sacrificed and in turn may have given up liberties that took centuries or longer to fight for. You don’t have to feel any particular way about the events of 911 as it related to “conspiracy theory” to know now that to some degree you’ve been had. Many sight that we later captured and killed Osama Bin Laden however I would question why such a wanted man wasn’t brought to trial, why were no pictures taken of the body? The most wanted man on the planet vanished into thin air with few questioning the motive.

I wouldn’t say I have all the answers, but I would say I have a lot of questions.

w0_h0_28023df4-b3f0-47e5-b7cf-ecd4314ec3bbBefore digressing too far off topic in an article intended to highlight personal devices, and home computers and gaming systems prime targets for hackers and government would be listening ears. It’s not about what we do or don’t care if the government hears. For me I think its about the men and women of the armed services that have died for our rights as provided within the constitution, and those who have still sworn to defend it against all enemies foreign and domestic. Recently on Shark Tank (NBC) one of the worlds foremost computer security experts Robert Herjavec stated plainly how easily it would be for even a minimally skilled hacker to watch people through their devices. When asked if it was a real threat he stated “Oh yes it’s real, very real.”

I personally have been in the IT industry since 2000, and have been around computers my entire life, and I can personally attest having worked closely with Microsoft through their vendor, and Apple Inc. through theirs the threat is very real, and it’s not just “big brother” watching or who has the ability to. I would caution those using devices on public, and home networks to understand there is a very, very, high sense of FALSE security. So the next time your wondering stick your phone in a drawer, use a piece of tape, or Band-Aid, even a bag clip, just remember they’ll still have sound.

My One

“My One”

I don’t feel special when your not around , I disapear inside myself and can’t be found. Your the better half of my heart all thats good in me, connected like legos clicking together always meant to be. Whatever the case in whatever way just know your in my soul to stay. It doesn’t have to be any particular thing you say, it only takes a smile from you to brigten my day. No one else compares to the love you give, without it I feel breathless unable to live. Hours fly by like seconds when the movies on and we talk all the way through, then when it’s time to say goodbye I don’t wanna take my arms off
of you.

I only want to argue if it could make it better.
I’d only take us through a storm I knew we could weather.
Anywhere fine as long as we’re together, end conversations with always because I picture us forever.
Give the best of me pushing past the odds,
Provide for you no matter what the cost.

The friendship always came first with your interests at heart which helped me know if we built something it’d be hard for others to tear apart.
It was like I took the playbook and tossed it out cause this wasn’t a game, I wanted to know you on a deeper level luckily you felt the same.
I abandoned previous reckless thinking seeing around the curve to reasons that had before left me sinking.

You won’t find me out with other girls, seeking strip clubs for cheap thrills.
Out with those when I say I’m not because I’m proud of the love we’ve got.
I will watch the words I speak as to not offend because more than lover your a friend.
When the town burns and only we remain, good times or bad I will treat you the same.
Temptation wont call me hard times wont make me run when it gets tough I’ll remember how we begun.
You above all others above you none; where you belong constatly remind you your my one.

* Im still working on this and lots more for the Feb issue an issue dedicated to that thing called love.

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